Wednesday, July 1, 2009
{ 7:13 AM }
Rain patters on the window
I've been feeling so low
Sometimes it's so hard to not cry
When deep inside you felt something die
Uncommon facets of life
Cuts you deep like a knife
Sometimes it's best that you've learned to smile
Though your happiness has run away for miles.
In your heart, you wanna do what's right
But sometimes it's so hard to see the light.
You've been doing something wrong
But how do you stop doing it after so long?
How happy you are to see little children
Who have a keen sense of innocence
Sometimes you wish you are just like them
Never wanting to grow up, not wanting to be condemn
It was then that you realise
That there's no stopping of lies.
Lies are what kept your whole life going
It's the ones that has kept you forwarding
It's sometimes is more better to say
Relax, I am okay.
But each time you go to bed each night
You can't stop but to do it with fright.
Fearing what tomorrow brings
You try to brush it aside, the matter lingering
Because deep in your heart you know
Problems aren't solving themselves tomorrow.
Dealing with it is like facing the demons,
Something you wanna do but not at the moment.
Running away from it may seem best
But instead it is making quite a mess.
You try to tell yourself this and that
But it sometimes just gets you boiling mad
So for now put it on halt
Keep it safe in a foolproof vault.
- Kat, Uncontemplated Thoughts
